My Life, My Lessons: A Diary of Healing and Growth

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I’ll talk about why I hit the reset button on my blog and why writing in a diary-style feels more like me. You’ll also get a glimpse of the themes I’ll keep circling back to, from healing and wellness to spirituality and everyday life.

My do-over: writing the way I was meant to

I started this blog in a completely different way than what you’re seeing now. At first, my goal was to create something that looked professional and polished, to share knowledge and insights like an “expert” would. I thought that was the right way to do it, the way people would take me seriously.

But here’s the truth. Every time I sat down to write, even though I had studied my topics deeply and researched them thoroughly, I felt like an impostor. A fraud. Someone pretending to be a professional when I’ve never wanted to be one. I realized very quickly that this approach wasn’t me. It didn’t feel authentic, and if I can’t be authentic, I can’t create anything at all.

So this is my do-over. This is me choosing to write the way I was always meant to write. Not as a teacher handing down lessons from a podium, but as a human being opening a notebook by candlelight, scribbling down thoughts and truths that feel real in the moment.

Think of this space less like a classroom and more like a fireside conversation, a cozy kitchen table chat, or a journal left open for you to peek inside.

My promise to you

Nothing you read here is meant to be an absolute truth. These are my truths, shaped by my experiences, my struggles, and the way I see the world. Your truths may be completely different, and that’s how it should be. If something resonates with you, take it with you. If something doesn’t, leave it behind.

I encourage you to always do your own research, to challenge ideas, to think critically, and to draw your own conclusions. This blog isn’t here to hand you ready-made answers. It’s here to spark thoughts, open perspectives, and maybe invite you to look at your life through a slightly different lens.

Why I held back for so long

People often tell me that I see the world differently, that my perspective doesn’t follow the usual script. They’re right. I’ve always had strong opinions and sharp observations, but for most of my life, I kept them to myself. Growing up in a childhood marked by instability and conflict, I learned to avoid disagreements at all costs.

Because of that, I’ve played it safe. I kept my most honest thoughts tucked away, sharing them only with my husband, my soulmate, and with my child when life called for it. Everywhere else, I chose silence over friction.

But silence isn’t my truth. And the truth is, I can’t keep hiding behind carefully filtered words. This blog is my choice to be braver, to speak my mind, and to trust that honesty can create connection. If I share my perspective openly, maybe someone out there will see their own life differently too.

What I write about

There are a few topics that sit closest to my heart. They’re not random, and they’re not trendy. They’re the themes that have shaped my life, broken me down, and built me back up again. These are the things I return to, again and again, because they matter.

• Mental health and trauma. I know what it’s like to carry the weight of experiences you never asked for. Abuse, hardship, and fear have been part of my story, but so has healing, resilience, and growth. I believe in facing the shadows, not pretending they don’t exist.

• Weight and the body. I don’t believe in diets anymore. I don’t count calories or punish myself with restriction. For me, weight is not the cause, it’s a symptom. I focus on holistic health — the way mind, hormones, and body chemistry all dance together. I share my journey honestly, without judgment.

• Holistic wellness. I eat a carnivore diet, I meditate, I practice breathwork, and I explore how the nervous system, nutrition, and energy connect. Wellness, to me, isn’t about buying supplements or chasing hacks. It’s about returning to what feels natural and aligned.

• Love and conscious relationships. I became a mother at 17, raised my children largely on my own, and later met my husband at 26. He is my soulmate, my anchor, and my reminder that love can be simple and profound. I write about relationships not as fairy tales, but as real human partnerships that require honesty, vulnerability, and intention.

• Spirituality and energy. I believe in the universe. I believe in alignment, manifestation, and the power of intention. I pull tarot cards, I explore meditation, and I lean into practices that others might call witchy or mystical. To me, they’re simply ways of tuning into the subtle energy that runs through everything.

  
  

These are the threads you’ll find running through my writing. Sometimes they’ll be woven together in one story, sometimes I’ll focus on just one. But they’re all connected, because they’re all part of me.

Who I am beyond the blog

If you’re new here, let me give you a little more of my story. My name is Mari. I’m a blogger and content creator, but those labels don’t really capture the essence of who I am. What matters more is that I’ve lived through a life that has tested me, shaped me, and taught me more than any textbook ever could.

I’m an INFP-T, which means I feel things deeply and see life through a lens of meaning. I live with ADHD, which sometimes makes my mind feel like a crowded room but also gives me endless curiosity and creativity. And ever since COVID, I’ve had mysterious health symptoms that no doctor has been able to fully explain. Some days they’re frightening, other days they’re just confusing, but they’ve taught me to listen closely to my body and trust my own instincts.

I’ve carried the weight of trauma, abuse, and hardship — yet I’ve also found love, purpose, and strength on the other side. I’m not here to present myself as an expert, but I am here to tell the truth. I don’t accept mainstream explanations blindly. I want to dig deeper, to ask why, to look for patterns, and to share those reflections with you.

Healing and Growth

I believe that healing isn’t about fixing something broken. It’s about remembering who you are underneath the noise. It’s about choosing alignment, living with intention, and making space for both body and spirit to thrive.

A cup of tea and an open notebook

So here we are. This blog is my second beginning, my do-over. You won’t find polished lectures here. You’ll find musings, observations, sometimes messy journal entries that capture the rawness of being human.

Picture this: you and I, sitting by a fire with a cup of tea or coffee, sharing stories. Sometimes we’ll laugh, sometimes we’ll wander into deep waters, sometimes we’ll just sit in silence with the weight of a thought. That’s the energy I want this space to hold.

If you stay with me here, you’ll find pieces of yourself reflected in my words. Maybe you’ll feel less alone. Maybe you’ll be challenged. Maybe you’ll discover something new about yourself. That’s my hope.

This is my notebook. My hearth. My corner of the internet where I get to be unapologetically me. And you are warmly welcome.

I’ve shared my world. Now I’d love to hear yours. Leave a comment, send a note, or just keep reading.

In case no one has told this, I’m proud of you!

Mari